Wednesday, November 18, 2009
.:: accomplished ::.
I feel very calm today... tried to squeeze time for things which I love to do. This is everything to me. I want to sleep, feeling all calm and feel so accomplished for the day. Managed to drown the uncertainty away. alhamdulillah. i like this calm feeling... let it stay ya Allah. let it stay.
.:: stop, for once, please ::.
nothing is going right, yet again. i hope time will pause for some time for me to imagine more into what life has to offer. why must i worry too much when the journey is far still right? yet, how can i be sure my journey is very far still? what if it ends abruptly without me changing certain things in this life and i can't even regret later? but i can't lie to myself, it is bothering me like very much and i don't know what to do. i hope to be in peace for the next few days. maybe the hormonal imbalance makes me wonder too much.
on another note, things are moving too fast that i am scared. i'm not going to just bid my time and wait; and like allow everything to reveal themselves. we have to make something out of every event and be brave to make certain decisions which we thought we are incapable of doing initially. i don't want to wait and give hopes, likewise, i don't want to wait and be given hopes. when he is brave to make certain things known, to his family, i on the other hand, am still unsure of what is happening and still awe-ing on how fast the rate things are going. how can this person who made mistakes before be soo brave now and step on his own ego that fast?
is this fate, or perhaps just a test for me?
you can see me smile but you can never see the wreck in my heart. 2009 is not a very stable year for me, financially, studies and heart matters. i want this year to end fast.
.:: wishing for world peace ::.
the next few days, i will be at peace, i hope.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
.:: let's pause ::.
nothing is going right at this moment because somehow, nothing is left.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
.:: excitement ::.
not much of an update. i am gaining weight but i'll work things out before i get on the plane, just in case. haha. ok semester is ending. doesn't seem like a semester to me. now i am cracking my head for the first few parts of my report before i zoom off to hanoi on the 6th. just let this fourth year roll past because i just can't wait to start this at the real level. like start working! i have been waiting for the year 2010 for soooooo long. finally it seems so near, it smells so near and it's everything to me. just 6 months more, this dream seems so real, so true. it means a lot to me though i know what i'll be facing will be horrible to the max. at least it'll help me to lose weight. lol.
ok i am getting ready to attend wedding dinner. next week it will be the cousin's. i am super duper excited can.
but it can never surpass the excitement groove i'm feeling for next year.
2010 come faster... i've waited sooooooo long for you.
Hello she is huda.. She's a final year student who can't wait to grad.
Pink Dolphin is love. You'll be glad to know she is currently striving for world peace.
Norhuda Maksum
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